Be near Lord

Oh to be near the Lord. My heart is desperate for more. This week has revealed to Steven and I that if you do not stay close to the Lord and His word....you allow a door to be open to the enemy. I know that I write alot about the past year and what we went through, but really the reason is so clear. I believe that I was as close to the Lord that I have ever been my entire life. Sure I had many distractions like, no permanent home, money, job, car, pretty much everything that I had once had was taken from me. I didn't dwell on it, I dwelled on the Lord. I buried myself in what the word had to say. I wanted to be closer than I had ever been to the Lord. I was, in fact I felt as though I was literally watching the the hand of the Lord move on my life. I saw it everyday. It's funny though, how we can get so busy in everyday life that we forget what it felt like to be in that spot where we needed the Lord so desperately that we were consumed by His word, His touch, His spirit everyday. My desire is for more of Him. I can't say that I want those situations to arise to bring me to that place, but I do want to be there on my own. I will be honest, since the Lord delivered us from that place, I have been a little too comfortable. Sure I remember what it felt like, but oh it has felt so good to be out of it. I have been a little too content. Now, my heart is crying out to be that close again. Why have I let myself become comfortable? Maybe I got caught up, but I don't want to stay here. I want more of the Lord.

So my journey now is to draw close to the Lord, there He will draw close to me. I will find that comfort again. I'm not speaking of the comfort I have been in for the past few months. I should actually call it laziness. The real comfort only comes from consuming myself with Him. Searching for His many treasures.

I have been feeling this way for a couple of weeks now, and this morning Steven told me that he had been thinking about it too, even though I had not mentioned this to him. Okay, I get the point. The laziness stops here. I can feel the burning in my soul. The flame has been ignited.
But from there you will seek the LORD your God, and you will find Him if you seek Him with all your heart and with all your soul.
Deuteronomy 4:29