What my heart desires...

It's amazing to me that the desires of my heart were placed in me from the beginning. The things that I desire are what make me who I am. The interesting part is that I did not come up with these desires myself. No, the Creator of the Universe, the One who made me, instilled these desires deep within my soul. Now, sometimes I don't always know how these will ever come to pass, but I have one assurance. His name is Jesus. I know that if my trust is in Him, I can rest assured that those desires will come to pass.

If the Lord Jesus lives in me, then my first and one true desire is to have more of Him, is to know Him even more intimately than ever. To rest in His presence. He is always near, and I can call upon Him whenever my heart is desperate for more of Him. I know that He hears my prayers the minute they leave my lips and they are answered that same very minute. So, today as I rest in the peace of knowing that because I serve the Most High God, I never have to doubt whether my heart is content. He occupies my heart and there is no greater peace than knowing that my one true desire is never far away, He's right there in my heart. All the rest will fall into place as I keep my eyes upon Him and waiver not, because before I know it the things that my flesh desire are not always what my spirit desires. My journey is to walk in the spirit daily as I continue to seek Him, the more I seek Him, the more I find Him, the more I find Him, the more I love Him. That is what my heart desires.

Where I left off....

If you read one of my previous post called Stand Firm and Stand Firm part 2 you may have been wondering how things have turned out. So let me backtrack a little. We received Steven's tax return in the latter part of February and let me tell you it was a blessing. We were able to move out of our friends guest house and into a home. Let me tell you how this house felt like a mansion compared to the one bedroom guesthouse and the one bedroom hotel room. We each have our own room, a big living room and plenty of space for everyone. I have not once complained of how small the place is...because it's not. We moved in the first of March, and if this wasn't the hand of the Father then you tell me. Our deposit was only half of what it should have been. We had no problems getting in because of our credit. I honestly don't think that they ran our credit. Let's just say our credit is not the best that it could be, due to alot of mistakes from when we were younger and carefree....but we are trying to work on that. After being there for almolst 3 months we had to attend a hearing for Steven's arm. That was an amazing day. We literally watched the hand of God move on our behalf that day in the courtroom. Amazingly enough the company which Steven had worked for did not bring any witnesses to testify against him. Their lawyer was a very arrogant person who thought that he had it in the bag. Steven and I left that day feeling pumped and excited for what we knew was about to happen. Why? Because we knew that we had won. We knew that the judge had seen things from our eyes. He had compassion. Now, what judge do you know that shows compassion while trying to be unmoved and show no emotion. It was the look in his eye that told me that he knew we were telling the truth. When both sides gave their closing statements, the judge looked down the entire time while taking notes, so that one party would not get the wrong idea of his persuasion. I am so blessed that this man was the judge that sat in on our case.

So about 10 days later we knew that we should be checking our PO Box because there would be a decision from the judge, but there was one problem...we couldn't find the key to our mailbox. Of all places, it had managed to lay in the groove of a little pocket of the armrest in the car. Don't ask. Steven finally found it and checked the mail. What he found there was a check from worker's comp that was all of his back pay from the date of the injury....so 8 months of pay in one check. It was such a blessing to read the judges summary of the case and realize that he had actually made his decision the following Monday. So he had a weekend to think about it and came in on Monday to write it up, But we like to believe that his mind was made up before the hearing was over. That day was an amazing feeling, especially when we read that he had the okay to go and finally get his arm repaired after almost a year of non treatment. We are now in the settlement phase of this and I know that whatever happens God's hand is still upon this and our lives. His reward is what we are looking forward to.

I have said many times that the last year has been the hardest but most rewarding time of my life. I actually got to see with my own eyes just exactly how faith works. When you read in the bible that your heavenly Father will provide your every need, please don't ever doubt that because Steven and I are living proof. I could list so many things that He has done for us in His provision, and a lot of them are written in the previous blogs. There is something to faith. It's not just something that you say. It is something that you live. There is nothing that can convince me otherwise. I have learned so much and am so blessed by this journey. I know that there will be many more journey's that I must go on in this life here on earth, and I embrace them. The more I can learn to walk in the spirit daily, the better, for myself and my family. I hope that one day (if we are still here in this world) when my children are older they can listen the stories that we lived and I can read them the prints of these blogs. They too will know by their spirit that faith is real and that the word of God is real. They may not remember everything from these times because they are young, 5 and 2. But I know that the Holy Spirit who lives in them will remind them.

So as for now, our journey continues as well as our testimony.

Bless the Lord...

All praise and glory be unto God. He has delivered us! We moved into a house and last night received great news that Steven just got a promotion at work and a raise. Isn't God amazing? If weren't for His faithfulness we would not be in this position. I just cannot tell you enough how great He truly is.

I will write more later when my computer is set up (I'm at work) Just wanted to give an update and say thanks to anyone who has prayed for us during this time. This is certainly not the end of our journey, there is so much more to come. I'm looking forward to what God does in us next!

For your beauty,
For your goodness,
And your wisdom..
Awesome God
Praise the Lord oh my soul, Praise the Lord.

For your power,
For your honor,
And your splendor... Mighty God
Praise the Lord oh my soul, Praise the Lord.
Praise the Lord oh my soul, Praise the Lord.
And I will worship you,
I will bless your name forever,
I will worship you,
Bless the Lord oh my soul, Bless the Lord
Bless the Lord oh my soul, Bless the Lord

For your Kindness
For your Favor,
For your Mercy.. Gracious One
Thank the Lord oh my Soul, Thank the Lord.
For your fire,
For your testing
And your Spirit... Holy One
Thank the Lord oh my Soul, Thank the Lord.
Thank the Lord oh my Soul, Thank the Lord.

Bless the Lord oh my Soul,
Bless the Lord oh my Soul, Bless the LORD!

For your Suffering,
For your Anguish
And your sorrow.. humble King,
Bless the Lord oh my soul, Bless the Lord
Bless the Lord oh my soul, Bless the Lord

For your Victory
For your Triumph,
And you'll soon come and reign over all.

And I will worship you,I will bless your name forever.
I will worship you,
Bless the Lord oh my Soul, Bless the Lord {My Soul}
And I will worship you, I will bless your name forever.
I will worship you,

Bless the Lord oh my Soul, Bless the Lord
Bless the Lord oh my Soul, Bless the Lord
Bless the Lord oh my Soul,
Bless the Lord oh my Soul,
Bless the Lord oh my Soul,
Bless the Lord oh my Soul, Bless the Lord

Posted: 6:05 AM, 2006-Mar-3

Saved by grace through faith....

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast. Ephesians 2:8

Grace is A favor rendered by one who need not do so; indulgence.

Faith is the substance of things hoped for; the evidence of things not seen. (Hebrews 11:6)

When I look back at my teenage years, I often wonder how someone like me could be loved by the Most High God. I was no angel. I did things I am certainly not proud of. I rebelled against alot of things. I knew that there was a God. I knew that He sent His son Jesus to die for me, so that I may be saved and spend eternity in Heaven.

I'm not sure that I exactly understood the love that my Heavenly Father had for me. Even though I had received Christ as my Lord and Savior when I was about 13. I spent the next six and a half years pleasing my selfish, wordly desires;and doing whatever I pleased. I spent my entire teenage years trying to be someone I was not. I wanted so badly to be friends with people that loved the pleasures of this world,example....alcohol, drugs, cigarettes, name it.....they did it, and it was cool!

God had not forgotten about me. He remembered that day when I was 13 , when I had given my life to Him. He knew I would journey off the straight and narrow path that leads straight to Him. I would be back and He knew that.

I thank God for His mercy, His compassion and never ending love. He rescued me and my life took on a whole new meaning. I started to believe my worth. I started really believing in God's promise. I believed in Him, I had faith in Him. Because I had faith in what Jesus had done for me God's grace poured out into my life. I really knew with all my heart that God had saved me.

So, even though I messed up. God did not turn His back on me. He had mercy on me. He knows we are not perfect. He knows that we will mess up. We can't earn this gift, but we can freely receive. We don't have to do anything but accept His son Jesus as our Lord and Savior. Receive Him, allow Him to come and take over for you. Let HIm work out everything for you.Why not? It doesn't cost you anything, Jesus already paid that price when He died on the cross for you. If you can fully grasp what that means, You'll never be the same. I thank the Lord for this truth.

The LORD is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and rich in love.
The LORD is good to all; he has compassion on all he has made. - Psalm 145:8-9

I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. - Galatians 2:20

I thank you Lord, you saved me and I will forever be in awe of You. I thank You for the revelation that you have placed inside of me. I will never be the same. Amen


Posted: 10:27 PM, 2006-Feb-2

Short but sweet.....

I just want to give thanks to the Lord today. There are too many things to name right here in this blog, but specifically for what is about to be done in our lives. God is so good and so amazing. I feel overwhelmed and encouraged this very moment. God has such amazing ways to lift us up, encourage and bless us.

I just sit here thinking about the Lord and how much He love's for us to meditate on Him. I think about how good it feels to know that I am pleasing my Heavenly Father when I think about Him, when I sing to Him, when I praise him, when I seek Him. He is so amazing. For anyone that may come across this blog and read the below is for you:



I pray that God will pour out His blessing upon you this year in all areas of your life. I pray that God will move so mightily on your behalf that the only explanation will be of God. I pray that God reveal himself to you daily and teach you new things that will only grow and prosper you. May His light shine so radiant all around you that no one can take their eyes off of the light the shines in you.

Isaiah 50:23
But giving thanks is a sacrifice that truly honors me.
If you keep to my path, I will reveal to you the salvation of God.
Posted: 5:11 PM, 2006-Jan-27

Peace that surpasses all understanding

Yesterday my husband met with our new lawyer. He confirmed that he would take my husbands case. After hearing this news my husband left the lawyers office just beaming. See, just last week his previous lawyer had quit on him. He did some very unprofessional things and said some things that were very inapproriate. All because Steven asked him two simple questions. Steven called me after that and told me what had just happened. He couldn't believe it. I think he was in shock that entire day. But the interesting thing was that when he told me I couldn't stop laughing. I just knew that this was God getting this old lawyer out of the picture to bring in the new one who would carry out His purpose.

The night before all of this happened, we were at our friends house.Our friend Mary told us of how she had a really good friend who did some work for a lawyer who was also a personal friend of his. She said that if for some reason things didn't work out with Steven's lawyer that he should really consider calling this one. We thought,"ok, but hopefully we won't have to do that".
Then the next morning all of the crazy stuff happened and immediately we remembered the words from our friend Mary. Now keep in mind that the hearing was only one week away at the time. Which it would have been tomorrow but the new lawyer has filed for a continuance. It turns out that the old lawyer had not done one single thing to prepare for Steven's hearing.Only one week away and nothing.

Isn't it just amazing how God works EVERYTHING out? We didn't panic or run around crazy wondering what we were going to do. We just immediately knew that God had His hand upon our lives and this case. We knew that if God had removed this old lawyer then there was a great reason for it. You know the funny thing is that in the first phone conversation with the new lawyer, he had asked Steven questions that the old lawyer never asked or came close to. This lawyer will get the job done, and there is no question about that. PRAISE GOD!

Through it all I have had a peace that has no other explanation than that of God. He is the reason for my peace. He has promised Steven and I that He will come through for us. Isn't that amazing? I just encourage anyone reading this to experience God's peace. Release to Him every burden. There is such freedom in releasing your burden's upon the Lord, and this is a freedom that I wouldn't trade for anything. I look forward to watching this all pan out. Seeing what God does for His children. He is the Almighty and I will forever give Him praise!



Posted: 5:48 PM, 2006-Jan-17

Stand Firm part 2

So from where I left off yesterday....... We moved into this guest house which is rather perfect for our little "vacation". It has 1 bedroom, 1 bathroom, 1 living area and kitchen. Now I know that sounds small but really it's not. Our room is big enough that we can fit our king size bed and Makenna's daybed and Kyle's bed. We all sleep in the same room, but it's perfect for us until God moves us into our next place of rest which will be a little more permanent:) We haven't had to pay rent for the first month in exchange for watching the homeowner's dog's while they were out of town. We did agree to pay a small anount for rent for the 2nd month which is no big deal. We know that this little house is not permanent so that is why we are so content. I couldn't have asked for a better home to stay in. God knew exactly what we needed and he provided. What an AWESOME GOD!

You may have read my previous blog about the best Christmas ever. I really mean that. Let me get into a little detail about what we experienced this year. As I mentioned before, I wasn't really thinking much about Christmas this year. This time I wasn't really praying about it all, I just kind of blew it off. Maybe in the back of my mind I just wanted to block out the fact that it was Christmas and we didn't have anything to give. God obviously had different plans. We received such a gift this year for Christmas. We received the revelation knowledge of the Almighty Father and his true love and compassion for us. We were priveledged to experience His loving arms wrapped around us. We never felt alone. It was like God was saying,"My dear children sit back and watch what I will do for you today." Everyday He blew us away with more gifts from Him. People brought us gift cards and 17 wrapped presents from a "Christmas angel" for our children. So we went from no presents in our home for Christmas to 17. That may not sound like alot to you but to me and my husband it was more than we could have ever imagined. After that we had family that gave us money that we never in a million years expected. Their response was that they felt led by the Lord to do this for us. Praise God. I hope one day they actually know what that meant to us. Not the amount they gave us,even though it was very significant. It was just knowing that God was doing that for us, because He loves us so very much, more than we will ever know.

After Christmas was over I received word that my brother who was scheduled to leave for Afghanistan on the 1st of January was going to be traveling through Chicago and staying over night. Now my family and I thought we wouldn't see him until sometime after his tour was over. We haven't seen him since May when he was married and then traveled straight back overseas with his new wife. Now because my mother works for an airline we were able to hop on a flight and fly right over to Chicago to see him. We even had a family member there to stay with. We only stayed one night because he had to leave the next morning very early. We actually only saw him for about 5 hours but those 5 hours were so worth it. My point in this is that God knows the secret desires of our hearts, desires that we don't even know about yet. It was a very last minute thing that we even got to go see my brother but God made it happen all for free because that was a desire of my family to see him before he left.

I just want to take a minute to magnify the Lord. He is so worthy to be praised. Holy is the Lord God Almighty, the earth is filled with His glory. Please understand that this has been the hardest but most rewarding time in my life. I thank God for this lesson in faith. Who knows how long in life I would have gone without knowing and experiencing first hand His truth, His AWESOME hand move on my behalf.How awesome that my children get to experience at such a young age who God really is. I praise God that my children will grow up knowing that their God is right there with them and that they will never have to fear. They get to see exactly what God does for His children who love Him. There is such joy in knowing that I truly understand what entering into His perfect rest means. I can honestly say that His peace is THE peace that surpasses all understanding. You will never fully understand that peace and rest until you fully give to HIm every burden and every circumstance. To do that is hard but once you grasp the concept that there is a Creator of the universe that knew your name before you were ever formed in your mother's womb. He knew every part of your life before you were ever born. So there is nothing new under the sun to God that would take Him by surprise. He see's the depths of our hearts and knows that there will be times when we won't understand what is going on but He knows. To fully trust in the Lord means that we get rid of our "Stinkin Thinkin" we are not to think as people of this world think. We as believers in Christ are to be spiritually minded and walk in the spirit daily, not to conform to this world and it's ways of thinking. We are visitors here in this world, this is not our home. Isaiah 8:11-14 says
" do not think like everyone else does. Do not be afraid that some plan conceived behind closed doors will be the end of you. Do not fear anything except the Lord Almighty. He alone is the holy one. If you fear Him, you need fear nothing else."

Would I have ever learned this important lesson in faith if I would have not quit my job? Even though sometimes we don't underdstand what God is doing we can rest assured that He does have a plan, and that is a plan to prosper you in all areas of your life. Never fear that God will not come through for you. He loves you more than you will ever comprehend. His plan is superior. So I encourage you to Stand Firm, sit back and watch what the Lord will do for you today.


Posted: 11:10 PM, 2006-Jan-7

Stand Firm....

Looking back at the past 2 years, I can see that God has been preparing me. For what, you ask? Well that's easy. He has been preparing me to trust Him and Him alone! Wow! Now,I know that everyone goes through different stages in their walk with the Lord, but for me and this season has been Faith.

It all started when I really felt the Lord telling me quit my job. Most people of this world probably thought I was absolutely crazy, especially when my husband really didn't make enough money for me to quit. We have 2 small children and we really couldn't afford daycare for both of them. At the time it was "my only option". I knew that I was stepping into something that was uncertain. I didn't really know what was going to happen. All I knew was that I really felt like that's what I was suppose to do. There were alot of hard times financially. We had our Tahoe Reposessed. Boy was that hard. We didn't have a car after that. There were times when I questioned if what I had done was the right thing. My husband got a new job which paid in one week what he made in one month. We thought oh praise the Lord, we are finally in a position to start getting ahead. Well that didn't last. My husband was hurt on that job and now dealing with a lawsuit against that company for the way they chose to handle his injury. So he went without a job for 3 months. We had no income. But the whole time my dad was telling us to "Stand Firm" That was hard at first. We started realizing that this was all for a purpose. God was shaping and molding us. We started to understand that God would never allow something like all of this happen if He weren't going to bring us out of it. We knew that we weren't ruined. We knew that God would take what the enemy had meant for harm and turn it around for good and also for His glory.

I praise God for those words "Stand Firm". If I hadn't heard those words on a daily basis, I'm not sure I would be where I am today. I might have fallen apart 3 months ago, having to go through this lesson all over again until I got it right. Because I stood firm we had a car given to us by my 84 year old grandmother that just called us out of the blue one day to tell us that she wasn't doing much driving these days and that she wanted to "GIVE" us her car. Praise God. He answered our prayer for a car because we stood firm. When my husband was out of a job for that 3 months and we were living in a hotel, we most of the time didn't have a clue where our rent money was going to come from every week. But because we stood firm our prayers were being answered. Our rent was getting paid one time anonymously, other times by people who probably didn't really realize what was going on. Oh but we knew it all along, all because we stood firm. At one point we were getting down to absolutely no food in the pantry or in the fridge and all there was left was a huge package of spaghetti noodles that I had bought a couple months before from Sam's and 1 jar of spaghetti sauce. I will admit I was starting to get worried, ok I was really worried. I even called my dad crying because it was breaking my heart to imagine my kids without food. Thankfully my dad did not do what any normal parent would do. They would run out and do anything to try and fix it. With hesitation he asked how he could get me some money, because I was about an hour away from him. After hanging up the phone I thought oh boy better cancel that request and let God do His thing. So I called my dad back and said, "nevermind dad, I know God will provide." He gladly accepted because he knew God would provide and he didn't want to get in God's way. Well because I stood firm, I received a call the next morning from my dad saying that he had a friend stop by and give him a $200.00 gift card from Walmart. Now we have never met this man, and he only knew that my husband was hurt at work. He didn't know that we had almost no food in our pantry. He just happened to buy a lottery card and won $400.00. He got all the way home and thought,"whoo hoo, extra Christmas money. God had other plans for some of that money. He was prompted by the Lord to go back up to Walmart and put half on a gift card and give it to us, even though he didn't even know us. That one blew me away! Then we had a friend of a friend call us to tell us that her and her husband had a guest house out back behind her house that we could stay in until we got back on out feet. All because God knew how bad we wanted out of that hotel and because we stood firm.

Oh how I praise God for His faithfulness. He has taught me so much this year. I know He is not done, there are so many other parts of His wonderful plan that are waiting for me. I embrace them, I long for them. I long for anything that will bring me closer to Him and teach me to be more like Him. Oh how marvelous is our God. He is so mighty and so loving. He is higher than the heavens and worthy of ALL praise. Most highest praises be to His name and His name alone. Hallelujah!

Well for now I will have to say TO BE CONTINUED......UNTIL TOMORROW
Posted: 12:40 PM, 2006-Jan-7

Perfect Timing....

I have written alot about how God always comes through at just the right time. He always knows when I need to hear a word of encouragement. He knows when I need anything in different situations. The other day I was reading over a letter that we received from the TWCC explaining that my husband had a court date and basically reviewing what was discussed at the Benefit Review Conference. I was reading the part of the letter that discussed what was being disputed and thought,"no wait, there's alot missing here. But what is being stated is all a lie" I had to stop myself from getting angry and remember that this is not our battle. It belongs to God because we gave it to Him along time ago when this all started.

Of course God could sense my frusteration and decided that He would get my attention that night. I got an email from my dad. It was from a website that posts prophetic words,words of encouragement,etc....

God was reminding me that He has given us the victory, and that He will come through for us. And, even though they may look like giants do not fear, do not doubt and waiver in faith. I thought to myself wow God,that is exactly what I was starting to think,that this company was so big and their lies were going to ruin everything. But of course that is not the case. They may look like giants in this world, but I choose to look at things with my spiritaul eyes. The eyes that see all truth. If God says to trust Him, that He will come through for us, then there is no turning back. I will not waiver, I will not fear, I will not doubt. I will keep my eyes upon Him and His precious promise. How wonderful it is to know that God cares so much that He would go through any means to get His message to you. How wonderful our God is.

I just thank Him this day for loving me so much. For allowing me to see Him move for me daily. Thank you dad for being available when God wants to get His message across and for being so sensitive to the Holy Spirit. I love you very much, and thank you for being who you are. You are such a blessing to me and so many others!


O Lord, you are my God; I will exalt you and praise your name, for in perfect faithfulness you have done marvelous things,things planned long ago.
Isaiah 25:1


Posted: 9:29 PM, 2006-Jan-3

The Best Christmas Ever.....

This year has been the best Christmas by far. Here it is the eve of Christmas Eve and I already know that this Christmas will be one that I will remember for the rest of my life. Not because I got everything that I wanted on a Christmas list or because my family took some extravagant trip. But because this year my husband and I have been recovering from a hardship that was unexpected and we are still dealing with it but the breakthrough is close enough to where I can see it in reach.

This time that we have been through has been hard but also so rewarding. We have witnessed God so evident in our lives more than any other time. He has always been there, but isn't funny how certain things he allows to happen so that we may totally see His power and His provision, and just know that He is there. Over a 3 month period I have witnessed with my own eyes the AWESOME power and might of our Father in heaven OVER and OVER again. He was teaching us that He really did hear our cry's and that He was right there with us. He really is our provider, our source. Sure we always knew that because it is so easy to say, but He actually let us experience it time and time again. Somehow I don't think he's done.

The past 3 months people have paid our rent without us knowing. We always had groceries, we always had gas for our car, and we would get money from people unexpectantly! WOW, that's not even the half of it. This Christmas season people have given so generously to us. But the gifts people have given to my family are not what is most important. The most important thing this Christmas to my family is just seeing God move day after day for my family. How special do you think that makes me feel:) Pretty darn special. Who else would care SO much that He would do all of this for us. I can only think of one....my precious Lord.

So I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and hope that everyone might feel this special at some point in their life. And may you have a Christmas that you will remember forever.

Thank you Father, for letting me experience you so personally. I pray that this feeling never leave, and that I always look back to this moment this Christmas and remember how special I truly feel. I love you Lord. Thank you for Your son Jesus.
Posted: 11:04 PM, 2005-Dec-23

Oh He did it again!

Wow today is full of more surprises from my Father in Heaven. Today I got another call from my friend Melissa the one from the other day. She began to tell me that several people have been calling her and dropping stuff off at her house for us. These people wish to remain anonymous...of course. But I know who is in charge of all this. She said that she would literally have to load her car up to bring all of it over. Wow, I am amazed once again.

You know, I haven't really given much thought this year about Christmas...as far as gifts are concerned. I just thought well my kids are young enough to not really know that mom and dad don't have anything to give them this year. Of course they would get stuff from family. Which is such a blessing. These people who wish to remain anonymous don't really know how special this is to my husband and I. Not just because they are giving us things that we did not ask for, gifts for the kids, cash and gift cards for us. But because it is just proof that God is so much alive in our lives and that if you seek first the kingdom of God ALL these things shall be added unto you! Things that you don't even have to ask for. God already knows what we need and he even throws in there things that you want too! What an AWESOME God we serve! I just praise God today because of His unfailing love and never ending compassion.

Thank you Father for listening to my heart and knowing the secret things that I desire without me ever saying a thing. You truly are my Father, because a good father always knows what is so special to his children. I just thank you again for all of the special blessings that you have poured out to my family this Christmas season. I LOVE YOU PRECIOUS LORD.
Posted: 8:04 PM, 2005-Dec-20

It amazes me....

It amazes me that God is always so on time! You know the other day my friend called me and said that someone had dropped off a card for our family and put it under her mat outside her front door. "She didn't know who it was from" After visiting with her for about an hour I left and went home. I opened up the card and in it was a $100.00 gift card from "Santa" I stopped for a minute and thought, "God, you really do know our needs before we even know them ourselves".

What an awesome God we serve. He is so AWESOME! I could never dream of how truly AWESOME He is, I just know of what He has shown me. I know that if I am blown away by Him this much, how much better does it get? I can't even comprehend it! My heart is overflowing with awe. I can't think about Him without tearing up. If I feel this way about my Lord and Savior, my heart wanting to burst with feelings I can't even describe, how much more does He love me. How much more does His heart want to burst with love and compassion over me. He knows the words to describe it. Words that I will know the minute I meet Him on that day.

This was originally posted on 12-19-05

Prayer for my family

Father God,

I thank you this morning that You have blessed my family, You have favored and anointed us. I thank you that nothing goes unseen with you. You are the God that delivers on time. You hear the cry's of Your children. You answer and graciously give. I praise you because you have called me and my family. You are molding and shaping us. You are conforming us to Your image. Praise God! Show me today how I can be closer to you. Show me what I can do for you.

Prepare me Lord to receive Your will. Speak to me clearly in your word so that I may run with boldness, so that You will use me in such a way. Guide me into your perfect plan. Father, let your glory be evident in my life. Let me continually seek after what is perfect and true. Intensify this passion that you have placed inside of me. Let it burn so that all will see this light.

Father, I already know that you are my provider, my source. The only one who truly knows my needs even before I do. Thank you for giving me your Holy Spirit. I thank you that I can come to boldly and tell you what is in my heart. You care so much for me. You have a love and compassion for me that I will never fully comprehend. I will praise Your name through everything. Through the shadows of death and even through the valley's. I will speak Your name over every day, no matter good or bad. There is nothing that is too big for you. I can surrender every problem to you and rest assured that the answer is already there. Thank you God and I love you so much. All of this in Jesus Holy and Mighty name I pray! AMEN

This was originally posted on 12-13-05

Taste and see....

Psalm 34:8-10 (NIV)

Taste and see that the Lord is good;
blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.
Fear the Lord, you his saints,
for those who fear him lack nothing.
The lions may grow weak and hungary,
but those who seek the Lord lack no good thing

What a powerful statement to make that if you seek the Lord, you will lack no good thing. If you put God first in everything that concerns you, there will be nothing that is too hard to handle. I can personally testify to this, and I can say that I have tasted and the Lord is so good.

He has been my shelter and strong tower through many trials in my life. He has never left me. How awesome is it to know that the God of the entire universe chose you before you were ever born. He knew your name, he knew your life. He also knew the specific details of your life that would draw you unto him. To me, I feel so very privileged that I was chosen by the Most High God. I am the daughter of the Most High King. I am alive today because of His son Jesus. He personally rescued me from the slimy pit, the mud and mire, he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. And because He lives inside of me, many will see and fear and put their trust in the Lord. Praise God!!

I thank God for the passion that He has put in me to become more like him. To know him so intimately that I no longer blink when a problem arises, I immediately look up. I know that the God that I serve is bigger than any worldly problem. He is my shepard and I hear the voice of the Good Shepard. I hear my Father's voice, and the voice of a stranger I will not follow. I thank God for the Holy Spirit who abides permanetly in me and who guides me into all truth.

So I encourage everyone to enter into that blessed rest by adhering, trusting, and relying on God. Then you will not only taste but see that the Lord is good!
This was originally posted on 12-9-05

Moving my blog over

I am moving my blog to blogspot so that I can continue my story. So here goes.....

just for fun

1. My home is... very comfortable, and cozy....not as clean as I would like it to be on a daily basis..but I have 2 kids...need I say more?

2. I am listening to... .the girl in front of me sing with her earphones on ....oh no this is not American Idol auditions:)

3. Maybe I should… get this bad taste out of my mouth from some nasty fountain water that I drank.....yuck!!

4. I love it when... .kyle just comes up to me out of the blue to give me a kiss and a hug with out me asking, and when Makenna says the funniest things and makes me laugh so hard that I cry

5. My best friend... Steven with out a doubt....I love my girlfriends but no one knows me better than Steven

6. I don't understand... why there are so many people deceived in this world by this whole "NEW AGE MOVEMENT"

7. I lost... ….one of the diamonds in my wedding ring and am waiting to get it fixed

8. People say... that they think I am a SNOB upon first impression...but when they actually talk to me, they find out that I am nothing of the sort but just very sweet and fun to around

9. The meaning of my myspace headline is... (take a look at the world around you, can't you see that Jesus is trying to get your attention?) This is basically stating that the return of Jesus is so soon, and that all of the things that are going on in the world are meant to take place because it has been prophesied in the bible....it only means that you should keep your eye on the sky because Jesus will be back before many realize....so WAKE UP

10. Love is... only truly unconditional from our heavenly father. He is the true example of what Love is

11. Right now, somewhere, someone is... having a bad day and wondering what the point is anymore...BUT if they will just call upon the name of the Lord, He can change that forever!

12. I will always... be thankful for what my Lord and Savior has done for me. I will remember on a daily basis what He has done for me and my family!

13. Once upon a time, I... was a loser who partied all the time, drank, smoked, used drugs ever once in a while just because....

14. Now, I... am forever changed and have only Jesus to thank for saving me from that life!

15. I never want to... go back to who I used to be...that wasn't the true me

16. My personal motto is... Stand firm

17. When I wake up in the morning... I think....oh just a few more minutes....and that turns into thirty, good thing I learned how to take quick showers

18. I get annoyed when...people don't live who they say they are on a daily basis

19. People always...will dissapoint you

20. I sing... .like Brittany Spears...oops I did it again........really bad at singing

21. Hugs are the best when... my babies lay their heads on my shoulder and stay a while in my arms

22. Today I ...am tired and ready to go home

23. Tomorrow I will... be grateful, for it is Friday!

24. I really want...the Lord Jesus to come soon!